Imposter Syndrome: the persistent inability to believe that one’s success is deserved or has been legitimately achieved as a result of one’s own efforts or skills. –Oxford Dictionary
I have been thinking 🤔 about blogging as a ministry over the past few weeks. Then I started to feel like an imposter. I heard the following thoughts race through my mind: Why would anyone read your blog? Do you think that post is any good? Do you really want to hit publish? English is technically your 3rd language; your grammar is incorrect!
In a nutshell, I was unconsciously falling victim to the imposter syndrome 😱. Imposter syndrome manifested through self-doubt, fear, and feeling inadequate.
Another reason why I fell prey 😢 to the imposter syndrome is because I am an introvert. This is my thought process: I love to be in my cocoon. I don’t want to be “out there” in the fields harvesting. Why doesn’t God give me a job in soul harvesting that doesn’t involve spectators or vulnerability? I want to have a silent, anonymous ministry! 😂🤣
That is not God’s plan, though. He has been challenging me and revealing to me that I need to go deeper into my calling.
When I was thinking of the imposter syndrome, I went back to one of my absolute favorite characters in the bible; GIDEON! You can click here if you are interested in understanding why I love this character so much. Immediately God spoke to him; he went full-on IMPOSTER SYNDROME. He is literally the poster child for imposter syndrome. He tells God the following:
“Pardon me, my lord, but how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family.” Judges 6:15 NIV
I am literally laughing so hard because this is me!
For me, dealing with imposter syndrome has been an ongoing battle. Every new challenge and new season brings doubt.
The tools that I use to deal with imposter syndrome:
- THE WORD. I have found that the only way I get through it is by fully relying on God. I rely on what his word says about me.
- AFFIRMATIONS. I wake up every morning with positive affirmations that are directly retrieved from his word.
- PRAYER. I am also very honest, and I do converse with God about my insecurities.
I am curious to hear about your experiences with imposter syndrome! If you can, leave a comment and share how you deal with it.